My daughter left
home at Christmas, my business closed at the same time, I felt as if I had a
blank canvas and I kept seeing it as a wrongness and reacted to it with judgment
of me. It’s been a really heavy few months. Heavy as in I’ve created heaps of moments
where I’m asking Oh My (and I’m being polite here) How did I get to here? What
else is possible?
These changes
have created in me the desire to die, to not be in this existence, to get off
the planet and any other thought feeling and desire to bring about the death of
my body. How does one kill one’s self with ease? Jump off a building .... hmmmm
.... at my daughters new home in an apartment block someone did just that,
luckily my daughter did not see it and counseling was offered by the Police for
those that did. Hmmm, there’s no desire for me to harm others, I would not choose
to bring about a requirement of counseling for having seen my death, so jumping
is out. Same with jumping in front of a train. I’ve no desire to bring the
driver’s life any pain or conflict. In the UK there’s teams specifically for
cleaning up tracks and trains of body parts. Hmmmm. That doesn’t work for me
either. I’m not into pain and needles freak me out. So what else is possible?
What other choices are there for me?
Plenty of people
are going to react with judgment of me from this discussion. I say Bring It!
Too many times all this death destruction change is seen as wrongness, judged
and the person freaking out is worse, it is not a contribution to the person
that is in the dark seeking something more, better, lighter, happier.
I’ve written
about what I do before. I’ve explained I’m a domestic violence survivor. I was
raped. I’ve been in the darkest places. Choosing to discuss the desire to kill
oneself is a dark space for me. I’ve walked this road already. Yet. Here I am
in front of you openly discussing change and choice of death. Is it that we’re
in a space where it’s either or? Death or Change?
You know how the
grapevine works right! I was talking to a lady who was gifting me some
information about a friend of hers daughter who's suicidal. I'm a Bars
Practitioner and a Creation Mentor, I know how to create amazingly. I said to
the lady bring the girl around and I'll gift her with a Bars session, I know it
will assist. Currently for $75 a session lasts about 1.25 hrs, if you buy 5 it's
$250 the "hi-caps" rate ....
The lady said, oh NO, she doesn't like change. Wow! How interesting that she
did not allow the gift? Hmmm. It's so strange to me change happens every day.
Our cells regenerate daily, we are literally different every day. When we were
babies, we changed into children, then school attendees, then high school teens
then young party goers who drive, then parents and then workers or business
owners or home makers, then older, then dust. It is what happens every day.
What is this fear (false expectations appearing real) of change? Of death?
Death like change is just molecules moving around. What would it take for everyone
to be on the same page? All of life comes to me with ease and joy and glory®. This
is the Access Consciousness Mantra. I say it ten times in the morning and ten
times at night because I need to be reminded; that birds are the beauty of the
sky, that insects bring a joy to these birds, that the ocean is filled with
wonder and animals and it is also dark and scary place, yet, breath in the body
is the greatest joy of all. You see there is another choice, choose living! If
you have breath you have hope and while my discussion today is about death and
change, it is not a wrongness, simply a choice. What do you choose?
What’s required from
me to invite beings into my space so that these thoughts, feelings, emotions
can be irradiated, annihilated and ease of living is the byproduct? Anything that won’t allow that U&D
x GZ rwgbppa9sbb –Take action! – choose to change the desire to die, choose
living please!. I’m here I can assist you or a loved one and there’s heaps of
choice of other practitioners and facilitators that are willing to assist you
as well if my energy doesn’t work for you. It is your choice. www.accessconsciousness.com
Next workshop on Bars® 22nd
June – how to register www.helenstokes.accessconsciounsess.com $200 investment
in you - check it under my name is the tab classes.
Or I’m hosting a
$20 night Confidence with a Capital LOL http://www.facebook.com/?ref=logo#!/events/578041455552368/
Or I’m jointly
hosting a $80 day with Horse & You – Awesome Two ask me for more on this 19th
July at Burpengary.
Or www.beeu.com.au and book a private session.
And remember
.... All of life comes to me with ease and joy and glory® and please ask What
else is possible?