Horses aren’t just horses ... they communicate and they are so eager to please.
Some of you know my story ... I’m a DV survivor and now I’d
go so far as to say I’m a thriver or at least a work in progress to something
much greater . So for me it’s about sharing how to go from Victim to Survivor
to Thriver. Sure it was tough for a while. I’m so grateful to those that were
always there and I mean always. Thank you. Now I’d like to be the one to gift
back. I’m doing a horse handling course. It has built my confidence amazingly.
I recommend it to any who know abuse.
The horse – has two names; his rescuer/owner calls him “Pippy”
and for some of us we call him “Monsier Megladon (Msr)” he’s amazing. He’s
strong and he’s tough and he shows me how strong sometimes by kicking and
standing. I can lean on him and I’ve held his head in my hands and as he’s let
all the weight go so that I know he trusts me. Do you have any idea what it’s
like to feel trust .... Wow!! Tears are streaming down my face as I write this.
This amazing strong beast has the gentlest nature and I know if he did not want
to play ball with me or run after me like a puppy I could not get him too, he’s
too strong even for me and I’m a big strong girl. He’s beautiful really
beautiful when he trots the power is just amazing and did I mention beautiful.
I’ve learned to brush him. To walk around the back behind
him. To lead him. To run with him. To command him to walk 4 steps, then stop on
the 5th count. Amazing. He runs behind me when I ask and he runs
beside me like an organised event. It’s beautiful, it’s touching and I have
much gratitude for it all. This majestic strong beast that could easily bowl me
over gives himself entirely to me.
He knows what abuse is. He was rescued from the “doggers”.
His old owners could not control him and yet with the teaching of Gary and
Divina he is now gifting back. We can all gift, we can all learn and we can all
choose to change. There is always another possibility if you choose it, like I
have.
For me, I went into this to be more self assured around
strong beings. Who’d have thought playing ball would bring that? It’s not all
play although in truth I don’t call any of it work. Of course there’s a fee to
the farm and Davina and there’s the fee for the horse carrots, that’s his
payment plan and it’s cool for me. We say hello and a couple of carrots of
course, then I halter him, walk him to the grooming rail, brush his coat and
feet and mane, clean his hooves. I didn’t do all that the first day. Each
process is taken one step at a time. Then we go and do ground work (handling)
walk, trot, stop, turn, barrel hug, diamond steps and cross those hooves. All
of it is fun and all to learn how to handle a horse on the ground. I have not
ridden him. Then it’s ball playing. Then it’s us time, just him and me, and the
carrots of course and we just be space with one another for a few minutes. It’s
magic. I’m gifted and so is he. We both are having another choice to make more
of us in this life. Amazing!
Because of this confidence two new things have occurred for
me.
One is Davina and
I are going to co-host a “Confidence” class
in July 9.30ish til 2.30 ish with a share lunch in the middle. We’ll brush, and
run and play too. If I can do it anyone can. I was shaking and with tears the
first day. Now I pick up his hoof and clear it out. It’s magic. Let me know if
you are interested.
The other is - I've
always liked networking. It's had a wrap sheet for some, though not for me, and
besides that was the past, even Myer changed over the years. I like that people
get together and chat about what they do over coffee. For me, I'm interested.
If you buy something great, if not, have a chat that's great too. So for me
it's win win. I'm having my first coffee night, yes the new confident me, at my
home tonight (Logan City) 6.30 - 8pm and I've invited a very small group just
to test ... Hey I'm nervous. Hey if no one shows up I’ve coffee and fresh
lamingtons. If you're interested let me know and I'll invite you next time.
Guest Speakers John & Chez Burton "How to build a dream". The
plan is to do them 2 or 3 times a week different days and times. If you have a
preference .... Let me know ........ Now that I’m always up for coffee and a
chat :)
Being with this amazing horse has taught me to respect
myself, and to be present. He is stronger than me and if I’m not present he
might get hurt or me and that just won’t do. I’ve built a relationship with a
male energy, I never would have thought that possible again. Ok he’s not
people, he’s a horse, yet I’m better with people too. I don’t stammer anymore
and I walk like I’m present. Head up, shoulders back and uplift the body and
man is that fun when we’re running. I so enjoy it. I enjoy living. I have much
gratitude for the choice to be present as a present to both of us J
Thanks again for reading. Always up for a chat ..........
Helen www.beeu.com.au